Beautiful
Beautiful with Margaret Cho(from SuicideGirls)
I went on a radio show recently and the DJ asked me,"What if you woke up tomorrow and you were beautiful?"What do you mean, "What if?"He continued, "What if you woke up tomorrow and you were blonde, you had blue eyes, you were 5'11, you were 100 lbs and you were beautiful? What would you do?""Well, I probably wouldn't get up because I would be too weak to stand."Immediately I felt sorry for him, because if that is the only kind of person you think is beautiful, you must not see very much beauty in the world. I think everyone is beautiful, and if you don't think that I am beautiful you are missing out because I am so beautiful.It has taken me a long way to get to feeling beautiful. It certainly wasn't easy. I never felt beautiful growing up. I was a really awkward kid; very overweight, totally shy and scared of everything and everyone. When you are big people ignore you. You become totally invisible which is weird because there is so much of you to see.When I grew up I still felt like I was ugly. A lot of my life was lived under this notion. I had sex with lots of guys because I thought I was so ugly... who was I to turn them down?That is really terrible, when you feel so ugly that you don't have a right to choose anything. I mean there isn't anything wrong with being slutty. Slutty can be awesome and fun. I respect and love sluts and enjoy being one now and again. But slutty should be a choice!Having sex without valuing yourself and respecting yourself is a sad thing, and I did way too much of that.I look back on it all now and I want to cry for the beautiful young girl I once was because I wasn't as kind to her as I should have been. That is why I am so good to myself now.I have tattoos because I am so beautiful the only thing I can do is make myself more beautiful. My tattoos are gorgeous because they also remind me that my body is mine, that it is a work of art, that even though I may not be a size 2 and am old enough to be the mom of some of the tattoo artists who have worked on me, I am still stunningly beautiful. Tattoos are away to share some of the beauty you have on the inside to everyone who is outside. When I see anyone's tattoos I say, "Ah – beautiful!"I hope everyone comes to my brand new show "Beautiful". I hope everyone feels beautiful all the time.
Margaret Cho
